About Me

Friday, December 28, 2012


Such is the trap into which millions of us fall, blaming others for our hurt feelings and making demands upon them for change. This is very similar to the preceding "You make me unhappy" trap which only leads to giving away of personal power, a continued lack of self-esteem and more power in the hands of those who so "hurt your feelings". To choose not to make one's happiness dependent upon others leads to real empowerment. And it is possible!But the possibility must first be recognized, secondly accepted as something desirable and thirdly actively pursued. The goal is to change from being hurt to being OK with whatever situation causes my hurts so that I am not hurt the next time that situation occurs. Do you want to be so empowered? Examination of similar childhood hurts will probably be the key to not being hurt next time. 


Most people these days think that nasty names "naturally" hurt folks. Such erroneous thinking is causing huge amounts of societal unhappiness.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Tentang diri ku yg tak pernah mrasa bahagia

Tahun 2012 mrupaka tahun yang malang bagi diri kuat juga saya mnempuhi dugaan yang Allah bagi dkt ku..Januari bln ku mlapor diri ke kem miri utk kump 1 siri 9..disini mmg bnyk karenah2 yg yg brada di sekeliling memberi diri ku semangat utk meneruskan hidup ku..di situ juga ku belajar tentang diri ku dan hidup ku..di situ juga diri ku telah mgenali jejaka yg telah memikat hati sekadar kawan dan tak lebih dari itu..mula2 mmg ku agak sombong utk mgenali jejaka tersebut..atas ptolongan kwn skerja ku ya telah bgi num dkt jejaka tersebut..dan mula lh crta sbgai sorg kwn yg memahami diri ku ini..actly ku ni mmg tak suka bkenalan dgn jejaka tersebut atas sebab2 diri ku ni bnyk kelemahan..mmg ku ni jenis yg pdiam,mrendahkan diri,paling tak suka myusahkan org..sbaliknya ku yg suka mnyusahkan diri sndiri..disebab itu lh diri ku terseksa dan tak pernah mrasakan bhgia..dlm mnempuhi dugaan yg mdatang tanpa ku sedar telah mbawa diri ku sering tension dgn mslh sendiri yg tak prnh settle dgn bf ku ni..nak bawa break payah juga..mmg itu bukan pilihan ku utk meneruskan hubungan ini dgn bf ku..huhu..puas bfikir kenapa ya pilihan ku mesti ada TAPI...why??..mmg klemahan ku suka sgt kasihani org daripada kasihani diri sendiri..mungkin itu ku tak pernah mrasai bhgia tp seksa..ya Allah kau bagi lh kekuatan utk hamba mu ni...hari demi hari ku mrasakan seksa entah smpai bila n sampai kapan diri ku mnemui kebahagian...hanya skadar kwn yg ku kenali mampu memberi ku cahaya utk ku melihat kebahagia tersbut..huhu...

To be coutinue.....

Is all about Me

I ♥ me

This is a story of a girl..... (Part 1)

I'm by no means shy or quite. I'm outgoing, in your face, and loud. But I like it that way. And the few people good enough to call friends dont seem to mind either. I'm girly girl but can be one of the guys too. I'm all about having a good time. I can make pretty much any situation. I'm put into fun. I love to sing (sometimes its off key) and dance (like no one is watching) I cry when i watch sad movies. I'm a sucker for chick flicks. I'm the biggest scaredy dog in the world. My family is my world. I am nothing without them. My friends save my life. Music makes my world go round [ALL MUSIC] I tend to over think to much on things that dont matter. I'm a blonde and blonde moments come along with that. I'm the girl that will laugh at a joke i heard yesterday. Making someone else smile, makes my day. I smile alot and laugh even more (the best laughs are the ones that make your cheeks hurt and your eyes water)

I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me, and I have accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve...

(to be continue) 

I ♥ My ♥ Me ♥ Mine 

This is a story of a girl..... (Part 2)

♥ I’m the type of girl who is easy going.. If your being rude, i WILL IGNORE YOU.. When you decide to be polite, I’ll talk to you.. I’m a girl with feelings.. sometimes i have mixed emotions.. There are people in my life right now that i hope to NEVER lose.. I’m a girl who loves to laugh and loves people who can make me laugh.. I laugh at the most stupidest things.. I’m the type of girl who doesnt want to deal with drama but somehow gets sucked into it.. I just want to live my life.. And I’m NOT going to let one little thing get me down!.. ♥

♥ I'm the type of girl that needs a guy that will PROTECT me from the nasty things and people in this small world ♥ A guy that will SAVE me when I’m in trouble ♥ A guy who will TEXT me when I need to be texted ♥ A guy that will HOLD me when I need to be held ♥ A guy that will LOVE me 20/12 ♥ A guy that’s not going to make me the other girl, a guy that’s going to make me THE GIRL, the only one! ♪ Also a guy that brings music into my life ♫

♥ I'm the type of girl who will burst out laughing in dead silence because of something that happened yesterday. I’m already to be that girl again. The one who wasn’t afraid to fly, to fall, that never cried over dumb boy, who would never worry about being in love. I am nowhere near perfect. I eat when I'm bored. I fall for boys easily. I’m vunerable to believing lies. I’m hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I am going through. I make up excuses for everthing. I have best friends and enemies. I have drama and memories [and that's life] Live it, Love it... Learn from it ♥

You can say anything about me please… But I Am What I Am. And that’s something that You Can Never Be. Accept me, reject me, but I'm still me. No one can change me, except me ♥

(The End)

I'm not a perfect girl

I know I'm not a perfect girl, and I cant pretend to be.
hmm... Actually I'm a crazy girl. LOL~
I used to be a bad girl. I made friend with bad guys. Loving without thinking. I had grown up with cuss time. Now I'm trying to mature, to become a good girl, but it seem to be hard for me.

My hair is always untidy, and I ruin everything. 
My room is messy with many useless stuffs.
My parents always yell at me, and at that times I made them even crazier than me :))
I cant take care of myself, and I always relying on the others.

Sometime I'd get a breakdown, like doing stupid things, fighting with my friends, yelling at everyone, going mad with everything, and saying bad words... I know I'm damn mad as hell :(

Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me.

Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive my friends crazy.

Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say things I shouldn’t say.

I'm heart sick, but I always hide my feeling. I can't share what I'm feeling. Yup, you can consider me as a faker, a liar or whatever. That's why my best friend worry abt me. She can't reach to me. I'm feeling like our friendship was not the same. My bad T__T
I’m sick of crying all the time. But I just cry in silence because I hate people seeing tears rolling in my face.
I'm a daydreamer. I always dream about strange things that never come true. Poor me. lol.

Yeap . . I'm not perfect but I'm unique. I'm not strange but I'm different. That's why I love being imperfect :)