My own Life

- about me- Lea Nawe Robin

I'm self-effacing, impatient and a little insecure. i makes mistakes. i am out of control and at times hard to handle. but if you can't handle me at my worst. then you sure as hell. don't deserve me at my best. i've made mistakes in my life. i've let people take advantage of me and i accepted way less than i deserve. but, i've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things i can never get back and people who will never be sorry. i'll know better next time and i won't settle for anything less than everything. i don't care if you like me or not. because it's better to be hated for who you are than love for who you not. nobody’s perfect even me. i’m happy with what i’ve got. what i have now might be all that i have in my whole lifetime. i’ll never know what i’ve lost ‘til it’s gone that i believe based on experience. i think i’ll always have something or someone for as long as i want to. what i don’t realize is that if i take them for granted, they just might get sick and tired of waiting for me to come to my senses and just tell them what i should tell them instead of telling them only the things i’ve forced to say. Arghh! what ever i really utterly want to say to them, scream it to their faces. doing that is better than holding it all inside and letting them just pass me but until i realize that it’s all too late. regret will conquer me. i’ll never feel more remorseful in my entire lifetime. sounds awful ei? the only way i’ll prevent this from happening in my life is if i start to live life to the fullest and see things in a different perspective. i know, this is all oh-so cliché, but it’s all just so true. i have to keep in mind that life is like a box of chocolates, i’ll never know what i gonna get. Haha. so now, this is more than just cliché, but yet again, this, too, is true. life is too unpredictable for us to let things happen just because, every moment in our life that passes by will be a memory we’ll be wanting to return to in the future. now, all i can do to go back and relive this memories is to reminisce and try to remember what i felt exactly when that moment happened. how nostalgic. well, that is life. that is reality. that’s just basically how things are.but that just me. and that's all i can be. you can say anything about me, but i am what i am. and that's something you can never be.